Recently sa'de and a few others were watching a television show where the defendant was using a presumed although not clearly stated diagnosis of M.P.D/D.I.D as a defence for his crimes. I will clearly allow you to contemplate what they were. They came to both lightening and I annoyed and as some would say in here spitting bricks. Now i am never out well not unless M calls me and even then she knows nothing of my name but this is a blog i would personally like to write, for it is something i see the system deal with frequently and see their struggles within it.
First off all multiples will eventually lose the plot and in time hurt someone in a violent manner. Not only is this unfounded but also not the truth, those inside have been witness to the most horrible abuse this does not under any circimstances posess those on the top level to exterminate those they do not like because of whim or fortitude. Those that live within our system are in fact terribly afraid of violence be it either top middle or bottom level or anything in between. They try to poses huge gradeaur but in reality have little of anything to give once it hits. This does not mean under any circumstances they will not do everything to protect the body but protection as opposed to outright violence are very different things.
All multiples allow their alters to come out and littles play with outside littles. In fact the littles (children) inside do completely the opposite, they are afraid of outside children, although desperately seeking play time they do not venture out unless deemed safe enough to do so. In many circumstnaces with us personally they look but do not touch. Only when an outside child is not looking or otherwise occupied do they dare touch what is theirs. Years of abuse has taught them that what belongs to someone else is sacred, the fear of anything happening to it or anything going wrong is scary to them. Consequently anything they in turn own outright is treated with the utmost respect, the fear of consequence is always paramount.
All multiples switch so often we do not know whos who and whats what. Any multiple that switches does so for a reason, the conversation may be triggering or intersting to one whilst to another it is not. Rapid switching usually comes about because of huge levels of stress, excitement or fear. It can also take place when littles are in a safe environment and they feel they can emerge to see what is going on in safety, they also know who or what is safe and who or what is not. Although the revolving door as we call it in here is not always balanced by those things, there can be many other reasons why rapid switching can occur and i certainly have not given all reasons merely some of them.
Often i dont know who i am talking to. imagine yourself in a crowded room there are a lot of people in one room do you go up to each one and ask their name age and occupation? No you dont in the same way there is no need to ask who you are talking to all the time. If those who wish to say their name do so there will be others who choose for their own personal reasons not to. This is no slight upon the person talking to them it is simply a choice that we all can make.
I feel like im being watched all the time when interacting with a multiple. Well you are, for everyone set of eyes presenting there are many more that are no, just because you cannot see them does not mean they are not there. But that in no way should intimidate you, take it as a honour that what you say has such an audience most people do not get that in this world.
All multiples lose time and are forgetful. Not all multiples lose time and are forgetful, in fact quite the opposite while some may lose time not all inside do, one alter may but another does not, it depends on who the alter is and the reason why they are losing time. But although they do, there are many others who are watching the time very carefully, the system as a whole still continues to function even if one alter is not.
There are drugs that can fix this right. Wrong there is no evidence medically that any drugs can miraculously make multiplicity dissappear. There are drugs that can help some alters cope better, but there is no medical magic cure that can stop a multiple being a multiple. And like anything one drug can help one alter yet another it has no effect at all.
Multiples are simply bi polar or schizophrenic. Neither is true. Within a multiple lies many person/people parts, they are as real as i am typing this, they are not a wall or a door talking to you or simply different moods, they are people within their own rights. They have thoughts ideas and opinions, personalities and feelings, they have issues and non issues but multiples are NOT any other bracket of disorders, they are simply multiples, many in one body.
Multiples are just attention seeking and there is no such thing as this anyway. Multiples on the contrary are very private and usually quiet people, they do not like attention and do not seek it, there are of course certain alters who will appear for the party or the function, but they are the ones whose job it is to do that, as you can see from lightenings blog multiples do not shout from the rooftops this is who we are. In fact quite the oppsite they try to hide who they are, the stigmatism associated with people like us can be incredibally damaging so sharing it is not an easy option. Most multiples know very well what it means to hide having done it all their life, a diagnosis for us personally was something we already knew but once given was not a reason to go shouting it to anyone.
Therapists plant ideas in peoples heads and suddenly whammo you are this. No one can fake for a long period of time being a multiple without eventually getting caught out. Some Therpaists can place ideas in their clients minds, but on the flipside if their are already parts inside no Therpaist planting ideas will make one ounce of difference. Often it has been noted that multiples only come out and get noticed in Therapy, actually this is equally not true, long before a multiple even walks into a Therapists room they are who they are having been so since early childhood, they are functioning in the outside world, multiples seek Therapy not usually for a diagnosis but for clarification, ideas and help with functioning on the outside. They also attend Therapy because usually once leaving home or the situation they were placed in to become who they are and in safety they find the ones who have been in hiding start to emerge, this causes a number of issues and Therapy is their only option. Again not an easy one.
I hope this helps those reading understand multiples a little bit better.