old questions ?

So i figured most people who read this are older than me out there and i was thinking since yesterday and with two of the systems friends C and mitch a few questions about being old, and Mitch suggested i ask M so i asked her if her hair was really grey and she dyed it today, and she said yues i do dye it and its really grey so this is to the really old people out there but especially M whose the oldest of them all.

*when your hair goes grey on top of your head does it go grey like everywhere else?

*If you lose your hair on top of your head does that mean you have no hair anywhere else, because i think thats really cool cause then you woudlnt have to shave anywhere?

* Do your b**bs sag when you get old because M says hers werent but she was laughing a bit when she said it, so i think she was more shocked than actually laughing but then i think she really was laughing to?

* do mamograms make them shrink because they get squished M was laughing at that one to.

*Does excess skin make your butt hang down lower so it feels like elephants ears are flapping between your crack?

*Does menopause mean men O pause like you pause from men for a really long time because they arent useful anymore? Because i dont like that one either.

So cnan anyone answer these for me ?

Felecia

a really really bad day

Everyone said it was ok to talk about the trippy stuff. But i am still not sure so ill talk about last night and see how people react before i go on and say anymore stuff. Yesterday was playgroup and afterwards at a friends house. It was really good, but the twins were being a bit stupid and mitch was there so at least she knew who i was, shes so much fun im so glad she knows about us because she was so nice and so caring aobut me being out. Thanks mitch. So we were talking about being old and how when you are old ohh no i think ill save that fpr another time ;) Mitch knows what i will ask some other time.
Well i got home and the kids went ballistic like abnormally spastic, I started to get angry and i knew i couldnt get angry because anger against kids is dangerous and i tried to make sure i got things done and hoped it would get better. Well it didnt M rang sometime after 5 i think and by this stage im like i cant do this im going to do something stupid, i could feel it rising and i didnt know where it was coming from but i felt it was getting spiralling somewhere. I told her i needed help to do the kids as i was trying but im not that old and apart from having fun i dont know how to do kids that are doing crazy things. So id already called someone in when M rang back the second time saying no dont call those people in and i went too late but didnt tell her that because i knew if she said that she would just get angry and i couldnt take anymore.
T Amelias huisband hadnt been home all week working really really late and yet when it was suggested the pastor come around and pray for us, he wsaid he would make sure he was home and that kind of hurt because he doesnt care about me but cares to look good for the pastor. The the night before after he organised the pastor to come around and he decided hed be home, he also said ohhh by the way imm not home saturday night and into sunday. I got pretty scared, sunday is fathers day here and he wont be home and even worse on a saturday night all night. So he can be there for a pastors visit but not for me or the kids :S.
So because of the wierd things that are happening and me losing timne and because the kids were mental and because im losing time sometimes and because T wont be home and because i called soemone in i wasnt supposed to but was so scared i was going to do soemthing to hurt someone. I knew to keep the outside kids safe at all costs, but i was finding thoughts in my head that were getting all jumbled and was getting so scared i decided to take a lot of pills.
I just didnt know what else to do, i just took them and hoped i wouldnt wake up, then no one could get mad at me and no one could say i did a bad job or that anything really. And because im scared when the others come back and find ive maybe not done the best they will tell me to go away forever.
I dont remember anything till i woke up this morning and went nnnnnoooo i am not supposed to be awake. And now i know im fun and can do fun things but im thinking if its anything like last night and with T not here i guess i might be in some trouble. But i cant call anyone in because they all have kids and stuff, so i guess ill just have to try the best i can and if i get it wrong again live with it. Sorry this is such a serious blog but i will write another funny one soon :)

Felecia

hah and heheehee

I think blogger doesnt like me, Todd did some blogs and now poof ive lost them so im feeling pretty bad about that but i have tried to find them but they have vanished into the world of vanishing, M rang me last night to see how i was going and lets just say it wasnt one of my better nights :P lol but full kudos to her at least she listened when iwas going ballistic :P LOl i got over it and fast heheehehe.
So anyways she goes to see what incoragable really means because she didnt even know :O, i think she thought it was a really nice word to use for me, im like wow shes so old she can remember the word she used to describe me but she cant remember the meaning. i thought that was really funny, anyways she went into a blogger she didnt know and this person was talking about being incorigable and she read out what it meant something about willful stubborn fun etc etc i think, now the reason i dont remember is not because im old but because M not thinking went on to read something about this woman feeling better once in the arms of another man, now as much as i tried to keep a straight face I JUST COULDNT.
She goes to tell me about the word and ends up reading about these two lovers and she wont go with me for plastic toys, hah she tried to cover up and say oops but it was too late, i told her i was telling everyoine she visited a mills and boon site with a difference and she said yes i bet you will but i will counteract with the truth, hah i know the truth even better she copied and pasted it so hah everyone will know except i bet she leaves some bits out hehehehee.
So i then said im allowed to be incorigable because ive got too many hormones racing through because im supposed to im a teen, so i can be moody and i am hah, but i think shes too old to have hormones now so i dont tthink M has any excuses heehehe.
So anyways she was compliumenting me about being so good about the rules she layed down and i went umm ohh yess umm yes well ive kind of kept most of them in a round about sort of way a little bit. So she asked me which id broken and i went umm im not telling you, and she said cmon what have you broken i went nah ah there is no way im breaking my own rule of telling what ive broken heheee. All in all shes very funny and i actually kind of sort of like her a bit, so i know she wont be mad at this blog hehehee.
I could tell you all the wierd freaky things that are happening in my life and stuff but i think its too trippy so i thought id write about silly stuff instead

Felecia

M's list of what im not and am allowed to do :P

This is the list of things im not allowed to do whilst out according to M, just take a look

* no drinking alcohol,
* no taking any drugs,
* no drving the car at excessive speeds,
* no tattoos, piercings or brandings
* no watching horror movies
*no meeting or getting to know any new guys (the bodies married) even if im not still not allowed sheeesh
* no buying anything excessive as far as clothes etc etc
* remaining in constant contact with M
* write blogs and try to use im as a place of contact to keep me safe :P
* no getting in car for anything other than doing the outside children.
*sms M if anything happens im not sure of.

The reason iasked about boyfriends is because like Amelias hubby is way old to and i wanted to know if while i was out i could get a newer model because im sure his model is rusted, seemed a fair enough comment to me, M then had a fit i think she fits a lot you know its because shes so old. Im actually wondering if M was ever a teenage cause i think she skipped those years and just went straight to being old. She says she was a teen once i just think shes too old to remember, she said i sound fun but now isnt time for too much fun because it could be dangerous, i hope i never get old it sounds too responsible heheehee

Felecia

did you miss me :D

Well its me again :D. Did you all miss me :D. I dont think im supposed to be out, but this American dude inside came to me and said youll do and the next thing i know im sitting in the drving seat of the car I was so excited i got to drive all the way home from im not sure where but i t was ages away. It was so cool with the warm air and the grouse radio and doing 110 down a highway, so amazingly awesome. I was so excited i rang M, they had just gone to see her but i have the feeling she was less than excited to hear from me. In fact she seemed kinda concerned that i was drving and was kinda worried i was drving in the wrong direction. I wasnt it seemed but she seemed not all too happy to hear from me.
So anyways I was drving back here and into my head popped a message that i should visit somwhere so i sent a message to M saying if that was ok and she sent one back saying it was. So i did then she called later and found out i had gone to the place but she said she didnt send that message that it was ok, and isaid she did, so i guess some wires were crossed.
Well i was in my kitchen tonight and throught door walked these twp eople, anyway i never met them before but they seemed nice and so they said they would keep me safe tongiht, so i reckon that was really cool. But M called and said it wasnt but they havent been mean to me and stuff so i reckon they are ok. But M is freaking on the phone, so i dont know whats cool and what isnt anymore.
So M just rang and said to sms her if anything really wierd occurs, well i guess having two people in your house you dont know is kind of wierd so i am not sure how much wierder she wants :O But anyways im ok and looking forward to doing a load of stuff tomorrow if no ones back. Just dont think M's too keen on me being out for another day :P

Felecia