What we have learnt over the last year of Therapy, this is why therapy is so important to our healing.
*we did not make them have to with no other option because we made them by turning them on rape us
* we are not a dog who deserves to eat under a table
* we are not going to have our eyes cut out if we cry
*we are not stupid
*we are not ugly
*we do not smell like dog shit
*we are not the worst person on earth to get along with
*we are not going to end up in a body bag at the side of a road and run over ten times so no one can identify us and if we are then this is the paper trail that should identify the body
*that we tell the truth and we arent making it al up or having a false memory syndrome moment, and that other people ahve bene through it also and know its the truth, and that our therapiust knows we are talking the truth
*that our tongue wont be cut out if we talk
*that our lips wont be sewn together if we talk
*that so far our neck hasnt bene snapped and crushed so we are dead if we talk
*that we can laugh and no one gets punished
*that our littles can have fun and thats ok to
*that we can make ourselves and others proud not because we perform right but because of who we are
*that we are worthwhile human beings
* that Jesus isnt going to come and hurt us an that he doesnt have sex with you
*that god likes holding us and doesnt see us as dirty
*that angels will protect us
*that church can accept people like us (depending on where you go)
*that christians mean it when they say they will pray
*that the bible isnt about abuse and hurt as we had been taught
*that communion is just grape juice and wafers and nothing else
*that being on our knees isnt just about soemthing filthy or something thats going to hurt
*that we are a child of god no matter how much we were given to devil
There you go there is the list
This is the blog we promised marja a month ago
25 needs 5 wants Tagged by we have lost count now but it seems we are the last remaining ones to do to this meme.
25 needs
1. clothes
2.our therapist
3.our passion pop
4.our friends
5.our mobile
6.our computer
7.our car
8.the holiday house
9.food
10.the beach
11.the pub with a live band
12.enormous barbecues with many people around
13.a hug once a week (thats usually all we get and its from our Therapist)
14.a future we can see
15.no more alters thinking of self harming16.to finish healing
17.to have five minutes without hearing the word mum in the same sentence
18.to stop making ourselves suffer from what sam did
19.to pray more
20.to find and keep our bible without an alter hiding it and finding it months later
21.to get to church more
22.to laugh more
23.to cry more
24.to scream out our pain more
25.to believe in us more.
5 wants
1. a partner who gets DID who loves us whether we are or not and who will support us in all our life ventures.
2. to travel to Germany and the states to see friends
3. to live one day without thinking of killing ourself
4.lots of money to buy the holiday house
5.to live at the beach forever.
Monday, February 04, 2008
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8 comments:
All good things to learn!
Great list and a great many important things that you have achieved in therapy too.hope you will visit the uk too;-)
Both of these lists are great. Thanks for playing the survivor needs & wants meme. But I have to ask, what is passion pop? I don't think we have that in the states.
Dear JIP,
Congratulations for how far you have come on your healing journey, and for all you have learnt. That represents very significant progress, and that is so positive.
The things that stood out for me were: yes, you SO are telling the truth, and that so needs to be heard and validated; you can make yourselves and others proud, not because you perform right but because of who you are (what an important truth to grab hold of, and very liberating); you ARE worthwhile human beings; Jesus IS safe and won't hurt you; angels WILL protect you; and yes, you are indeed a child of God, because Jesus has completely cancelled out your former destiny and placed you in a covenant relationship with Him, for all time.
I love your list of needs and wants. That is SO healthy, and you SO deserve these good things.
Well done my friend, for all the progress you are making, and for the incredible courage with which you are making it.
Lots of blessings to you,
From Rosie.
well done for compiling a great list.
one of my pleasures in life is to make people smile and laugh, thats why my blog is often full of silly things.
wish i lived near to you i would hug you daily ((((hugs)))
we are glad you see those truths you listed and can now begin to realize they lied to you so very much !!!!
sending many hugs!
keepers
Yes, I so know you are telling the truth! All of your lists are great!
You have been tagged for another meme, the details are on my blog. I know you have lots going on, you don't have to do this if you don't want to.
It is so freeing to finally be able to tell the truth. Thank you for having the courage to write and share on your blog. You are definitely in my prayers. You are so courageous.
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