So i get a phone call last night from our father who says hes lost our sisters phone number and could he have it only to find he found it before i could hand it over. I rolled my eyes and went oh yeh. Then i get a text from my sister saying hed contacted her and had decided that at this point he could not help her. I ring her and said so tell me what he said and she said that he was sorry for her plight but he was in position to help her. Then she burst into tears and couldnt stop, so rather than deal with a hysterical sister i told her to hang five and id call her back. So i called him and asked what his decision was.
He said that he had just come back from overseas (again for the ninth time this past two years) and he didnt have any money and he was simply a poor pensioner who at this present time couldnt help her. He also said that he felt he didnt want to do anything because she hasnt spoken to him until recently. That he was only just reforming a relationship between her and him and wasnt comfortable lending that sort of money.
I coldly told him that i was very aware of the relationships he had had with my sister which had effectively forced her to remove himself from his care which he baulked at and i hung up.
I got off the phone and immediately rang marg and the conversation went a bit like this. POOR FUCKING PENSIONER SHIT ARSE MOTHER FUCKER SHIT HOLE BASTARD, POOR MY ARSE, PEDOPHILIC NUTCASE WHO SOLD HIS DAUGHTERS TO PAY FOR HIS JUNKETS AND HE CANT EVEN BUY MY SISTER BREASTS, FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM FUCK HIM, and so it went on . Marg then calmed us down and i told her i had to get back to my sister who was waiting for a phone call.
I then called her and told her sue the bastard thsi time i will stand by you, take the paedophilia arsehole bastard to court and get your money that way. But i know that she is far too weak physically for that to happen. But i want revenge i want him to have his breasts removed and have no one to help pay for them i want him to PAY. But i realised i wanted him to pay for the years of subjected abuse either by him or by allowing mum to torture us, he is lowlife its as simple as that.
The end of the story is that marg who has nothing very much to do with my sister has said her and her husband will help pay for what she needs. My sister rang me back thanking me marg calmed us down and i realised how very badly raw we are feeling, for us we know we have reached the stage where we have to work through this issue with our father. You know its funny even though we have known all he has done he has always played the fool in other words hes played the part of being a victim very well when of course he was the perpetrator. With mums rages he would scurry to a corner and let her nearly at times bash us to death, any sign of trouble he would scurry so its been hard to see him as a vile dictator bastard when hes played this meek mild role for so long. But yesterday something deep within snapped in me this guy again was trying to lay the poor pensioner thing is sitting in a million dollar home going on overseas trips and has money that he can get a hold of, all this for a guy whose only job was to drive a small van for a paper company, you tell me what doesnt add up. he just wants her to grovel and thats where the buck stops, finally i see him for the tyrant he always was.
Deshanti
2 comments:
What nerve!
SO PROUD OF YOU FOR YOUR ANGER! Anger is a powerful tool in our healing. We need it to find ourselves, and to motivate us to not stay the same. I am sure some people would disagree with that, but at the same time, of course, balance is important in all situations. I will still stay, though...anger is a powerful tool in our healing.
So proud of you for feeling it!
ang et al
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