Over the last week ive been noticing some anonymous proxys on my blog in the stats. I didnt feel comfortable with that as i know that ever since i have made a formal complaint against mon this has been increasing. I wasnt comfortable with this and so took my blog away fro a little while. In the meantime i did something that i should have done a while ago and have spent the last few days (on my week off) re reading all of my blogs from start to finish. And here are some of the stats i picked up.
Three times our system tried to move away from getting therapy from mon, only to find one way or another we ended up back at her office.
Over 5 attempted overdoses and nearly thirty threats of wanting to kill ourselves whilst seeing mon
Rosies own words were that felt her job was "to track us"
We counted nearly seventy i love yous given by mon to us on our blog when she writing them.
Twelve times we wrote that if we didnt answer the phone to her then she would have plan b up her sleeve and that was she would call our friends.
Mon wrote on a blog back in January 2008 "the more i work with survivors the more i realise that to love them unconditionally and to be a friend is one of the most powerful healing experiences that i can offer"
There are over ten times when monica wrote a blog on my blog which started with the words "I"
Monica wrote on our blog that the reason we had to be placed in hiding is because "they had been threatened that they would not leave alive", the threat came from a therapist at mons work who was a fellow survivor and had been programmed to kill us, well thats what we were told anyway.
When we asked mon to give evidence of the things that she accused sam of doing she refused our request, saying it wouldnt do anyone any good to see it. So i have never had any evidence that we have done any of what she accused us of.
monica charged us for calls she made to us whilst she was in england, so even though we had cleared our therapy debt before she left when she returned we were back to owing her another 180 bucks even though we had never seen hr in eight weeks.
Mon spent a lot of time hugging and holding Little's stroking their hair and telling them she loved them.
monica told us that we would probably be too damaged to ever be able to work.
Over five hundred times was a blog about ab reacting after during or near therapy when seeing mon. or when she had called us out of hours.
so lets compare it to now
We have two therapists whom we are happy with and have not tried to cease therapy with them.
We are NOT friends with our therapists and they are NOT Friends with us.
We have not overdosed or self inflicted since ceasing therapy With mon.
We can answer the phone with ease.
our therapists have never called us at home or any other place
we dont get charged when we go over time or get charged excessive amounts of money.
Our therapists have never said they love us.
Our therapist has never touched us. Except mr wonka who shook our hand once at the door when leaving.
In four classes time we will have sucessfully passed our cert II in hospitality. this also included service hours in a busy restaurant.
And lastly and more importantly we do not ab react anymore and that is the most important healing step.