just today we received news that a blogging friend had decided to leave blogging land and for all the sadness we felt we also know that the time was right for her. Of recent we too have found less and less time to blog our real life playing out in dinner services and cooking classes. In fact in moments when we are alone we can barely even get the energy to turn on the computer let alone blog, yet there is something that always keeps bringing us back to what we call part of our home.
Many times we stare the screen and have nothing to write because our life has become the fairytale of normality, even trying to find words that over two years ago we could barely string two words together that didnt involve how we would kill ourself or how we needed help. And now we find ourselves far from suffocating from the past but we are finding renewed strength in understanding our amazing future. We find ourselves more willing to hear the inner voice in torment and less willing to hear how we can shut that child up. We are finding that we can in fact breath when we thought our breathing was always to be owned by another person. We are finding that feelings are important and bit by bit we are trusting our therapists to help us grow with feeling no9t live without. We are finding that we are very much a like able and popular person and that people rather than being repelled in our company actually in fact enjoy it. We are learning that moments of freedom are actually a gift we would have been born with before they put us in chains. Yet in allof that we still find we cannot do without our blog.
We know one day there will come a time when we too feel we have nothing more to say but we recognise that whilst our journey may seem amazing to us it too is touching those who journey with us. As we close one therapy chapter in mon and get closure we have started a far more therapeutic one with mr wonka and rachel. No we indeed arent ready to stop blogging just yet for we have too much to say, but we know one day there will come a time when like our friend blogging makes way for new ventures, and that too we look forward to.